January 26, 2017 | Despite all that has happened, I feel that I need to put this in here. I may be sad now, because it didn’t work out, but this particular morning I took the time to write these memories and I want them to stay…

I was woken by the familiar sound of E over the monitor, shouting “I’m awaaa-aaaaaaake!” as loud as she could.  D was getting ready for work, and I decided to hit the bathroom before answering the toddler-call.  The plan was to attend a super-hot yoga class with my friend Cara at 9 AM, but something prompted me to take the pregnancy test sitting on the back of the toilet.  You know, just in case?  We had timed it correctly this month, and I thought that I was exhibiting all of the signs that my period was starting.  But come to think of it, I’ve been very teary lately…emotional at the drop of a hat…and my lower-back has been hurting.  And so I opened up the package.

Immediately a bold plus sign appeared…and I just stared at it.  Incredulous.  Was this for real?  I sat in there, hearing D at his sink on the other side of the door.  I slowly walked out of the bathroom and said, “Uh, D?” and showed it to him.  We both smiled at each other, then laughed, and had a big hug.  Cautiously happy, you know?  Because it’s so early (2-weeks!) anything can happen!  If this is going to be the newest member of our family, early October is the due date.  Wow…!  

The night before we had our buddy Joel over to setup the new treadmill, you know, so I could start running again?  The WPPI Vegas trip I’m taking the first weekend of Feb?  Oh and that CO trip that we are supposed to go on at the end of Feb but haven’t booked lodging for yet?  Maybe this is the reason I’ve been dragging my feet.  But it’s all happening, and I’m so happy that I walked on the treadmill for 45-minutes without even noticing, and have shed some happy tears twice today (and it’s only noon).  We’ve been ready, but scared, anxious, and now excited… 🙂

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